So I recently turned 20 and quietly took stock of my life. All the mistakes I made throughout my teenage years flashed before me but the lessons I learnt also made it to the slideshow. I saw relationships I built, relationships I cultivated and relationships I destroyed like flowers in various stages of bloom / decay...I saw my walk with God look like a map full of contour lines...wiggles here and wiggles there. Some were meaningful and made sense but others showed the wrong choices I made and the bad decisions I took stepping out of God's covering and His will. Several times I went offtrack and all the time He still took me back...Amazing...Breathtaking....How can a life so dirty and torn and just horrible be the same beautiful, wonderful life it was created to be? It all boils down to the God factor.
See, I just can't deny it and I won't. I've heard it all since my ears were able to discern words and my mind make meaning of them. I haven't seen it all, no but I can boldly and confidently say I have seen God at work in my life and without the blood of Jesus covering me, protecting me, providing for me, exchanging my weakness for strength, pardoning my sins, making me whole again, strengthening me...I know for a fact that my life would be a different story. The devil would have won. He would have killed me in my youth or he would have destroyed my life and used me to destroy others.
See I can't deny it and I won't hide it. I am alive and well today because of the Grace and Favor of God...free, unmerited and available to all who believe. Wanna know what it's like? I can try to explain but it won't be the same as feeling it. It's an exchange. An exchange we don't deserve but is made available for us through love we can never understand or explain. Life for death, strength for weakness, blessing for curse, beauty for ugliness, praise and gladness for mourning and depression. And you don't have to give anything in return because there's nothing you can give in return......so think about it.
Would you rather stay this way and constantly beat yourself up because you aren't perfect or will you tap into the perfection made available because you AREN'T perfect?
Just sayin'
